Adandon

Abandon. It is the core of my heart. From the day i step into the world i had known that i was and will be always alone. i had always and always will struggle to survive in this world which always seem to trying to devour me. i guess that doesn't matter. this give me strength and power. being alone i have to grow in every way by my self since from the begining i was alone and probably always be. Sometimes, i wish it wasnt true. i wish i had someone to share my feeling . but that someone never came. i guess i suit to be a loner more. sometimes when i gaze at the moon i always feel a feeling of belongings a feeling that similar to wolwes who scream for the feel of bonding with its pack. but i guess that day will probaly never come.

Love . what is love? love to me is a question that answer had not dawn on me. it what i seek but havent achieve. my answer will always be one when my thought on quetion that related to emotion that is i feel nothing. what is joy to others to me it is nothing. just ordinary things that always happened. i had always feel that emotion is a bother and only focus on knowledge. it is motivate me to advance in my life. i had always wonder what it would ex[perince love and feel it. love of any kind friendship and the rest to me it is not comprehanded by me. i feel i am stranger to it. i hope one day i came to experience it. so i would be able to express my self as others. it is hard to express myself for me because a emotionless person cannot express himself can he?

feel bad losing someone doccuments. i wish i can compansanate her loss. the only hope that i has is that no one faith andconfidence in me will woresen from bad to worse. hope still can retain my not so good image