Serenity Prayer

" GOD please grant me the serenity to accept things

 I ccan't change and change things I can and

 wisdom to know the difference between them."

This prayer had remind me that in our life things just happened- good and bad. So, we must always accepted whatever things that comes to us if we can, if cannot just accept.

Amazing night

This morning I woke up at 8 something feeling that God is very real and speak in many ways. I had a wonderful dream. In the dream, I was surprised, so surprise that I woke up from my sleep. I had dreams before but this dream I just had was more vivid, clear and left n impression in my mind. To think just yesterday I was talking to God in my prayer that I find myself hard to fully believed vision and dreams that other people had, since I never had one before. Before this, I heard that my friend had a vision or sign from GOD in her sleep. I heard that it is one of many sign she had. I did not fully believed as I never had one or if I did have one before I forgot. Anyway, yesterday I dream that I was checking my mail than some random fellow which I think is stranger email me and I think I reply a couple of mail. I thinks the conversation was centered on Christian.I had a little rest after checking my mail, then my younger sister ask me do I know the fellow who email me. I surprised and have a look at the mail she indicate. To my surprise the mail was address to my gmail and in the mail mention my name which surprised me as I did not give out my real name in my sleep. What really shocked me was, that the name of the person who send me had suddenly change to Most High. It is at this point I woke up. Too bad I cannot recall what was in the mail, before I received the last mail which I mention that the name changed to Most High and my name is included in the mail. However, this left question in my head; did GOD gave me this dream to tell me that do not doubted the dream which is sign from heaven according to her which I heard since before this I questioned about it or GOD is trying to tell me HE can send vision and dream to people and what was in the mail before the last one, is that message for me from GOD?

Miracle of healing

I had always heard of miracles of healing. However, I always have doubt, since I can't determined the truth of the person injury. However over the times, there are a few case of healing I came to have more trust on. For example, the healing of a almost blind girl in my college and the health restore. According to my friends(I was not there when it happened) the girl whose one eye was blind(if I am not mistaken) was healed by the Lord after she was prayed for.

The one whose health was restore was one of my mother's church member. A person whom my mother had been trying to let him know more of Christianity. I know not of that person personally, however my mother said he drinks and smoked heavily to the point that he have only months to lived because of liver failure.  However the Lords show mercy and grace. Though he is said that his liver damage is irreversible and cannot be heal or cure by doctors, his liver according to the last medical test conduct by the doctors was healed after he was pray by pastors and  sisters and brothers of the church. The lord had done the impossible.The good lord show mercy and grace to everyone. He heal even those who had sin by defied their body. Prayers does work. Blind eyes healed and health restore. 

Puzzle

I had been a Christian for a long time. Being a person who had little or no social activities, I have lots of times to ponder and think about things. Things that concerned about religion, philosophy and logic thinking always popped into my mind. However not all question I've taken them seriously, some just comes or ignore, others left their imprints in me.I guess that happened when you have lots of free time and don't know what to do. One of these question are about offering and cross. 

In my christian life, I had attended many services and missed many of it too. But one things I notice it the service during Sabath day run routinely. there is always the prayers, then the worship- singing hymn which followed by offering collecting and finally sermon. After sermon prayer is prayed before everyone leave. When it time for offering, I had always wonder how the money is used. Some church I know, do charity work and community work that require lots of money to do, but how about those churches that has does not involved in such activities. I had heard that some people who opt for full time ministering or missionary are being paid by the church. It is very noble and faithful to do so but should they been paid for it? I mean minister in biblical time never receive salary.They earn the money themselves. I mean Paul is a tent maker, the twelve disciple are fishermen, even Jesus, son of god is a carpenter. So why nowadays some people get paid for ministering? 

Some other thing bother me also. the cross that had been placed in worshiping hall in some churches. I have read the tenth commandment. one of the commandments clearly said no idolatry. Some people said the cross is to remind them about salvation and Jesus died to save our sin. Yes it is not wrong to remembered Jesus death save us. But can't it be done other way, taking the Holy Communion for example? Isn't praying, singing in from of the cross consider idolatry?

Isaiah 45:7: 
I form the light, and create darkness: I make peace, and create evil: I the LORD do all these things.


It is clearly state in the bible that He alone create all things that is good and all things that is evil. So I personally think it is wrong for people to said oh no The devil attack me or whatsoever. When people give the example of Job as aid to their argument, they didn't realize that the devil only act with God consent like what happened in Job. Job only under attacked when God give permission. So rather than said some spirit attack me or things similar to it, I think it is better to take any bad situation(bad things that happened to you) as challenge from God and ask for His help and see that if you done anything wrong to deserve bad things happened to you. Sometimes bad things happened to us as a warning from God, if you keep blaming the other spirit for bad situation you be like pushing responsibility. It is like saying one didn't deserve a beating when one's broke a glasses. It is easier to said this and that cause this then admit your mistake and change your ways or improve yourself. 


I know people who think that when one's angry/sad it is because that the spirit of anger enter that's person and then start praying to cast out the spirit of anger. In my opinion it is not wrong to pray but one must realize that it is absurd to blame everything on evil spirit. If that fellow get angry for no reason then maybe you can pray to cast out the spirit of anger. But if you done something to provoke that person then it is you who cause his anger not some spirit.If I were to tore a person book intentionally and he get angry is it that the spirit of anger enter that person or is it that I cause his/her anger?
I think people should stop blaming everything on the evil spirit. When things go wrong, they need to take responsibility, think of a solution and act and pray for help not just praying to cast spirit and do nothing.
If I am wrong please anyone correct me

Haven't think of title yet any idea?

What influence one's person life are his perception. Perhaps you had heard before the expression of empty glass and full glass of water. You can be thankful at having a glass of water or grumble at having only half glass of water instead of a full. Life is always better when one look at the better side, no point grumbling right might as well appreciate for what you had that emo at what you don't have. 

The greatest display of courage is perhaps facing one own challenges instead of others challenges. It easy to have courage when you are helping others but hard when you are facing the challenge. Reason is simple because you know exactly how much risks you taking when making a decision, could be financial and etc. When you understand the risk you will afraid of making decision for fear of the consequences. What if I do this? What if I do that? I should had done this. All ths thought will clouded your decision and at the end of the day you probably decided not to do anything at all. So The most braveful person is the one who able to face failure not just overcome things but to face the consequences that his action brought 

Temporary Employment

I had been feeling bore and unproductive during my vacation from studies. I am so use to my routine in college that I was unable to feel alive away from my usual routine- Da kei, study, and socializing with friends and mourning . If there was something for me to do I guess things would be better. Anything; family trip, work( I couldn’t find any job as it already middle of the month after my sem) or anything to distract me. I guess this is what made us human. Humans are after all habitual being, they are only comfortable in doing routine stuff. I guess I was over adaptive

Then out of the sky, Ny mother requests my natural, born-with leadership skill in her shop as a supervisor. It’s is laundry shop that packed with clients all the time and require great accounting skill ( which I posses) and leadership skill to increase productivity. So I said why not since I wasn’t doing anything I could learn something from it as well. it been a while since I assist my mother in her shop.

No matter how many times I work there, I always felt like the first time I work there-amuse and cautious. The customers which came by to have their laundry wash are quite amusing. Some of them was demanding their laundry in child like manner striking the counter childishly and yelling like a child. I was amuse and scare at the same time. Feeling fear that he bringing trouble and amuse by his comical behavior as well. Of course the fact the workers explain to me that he not angry or anything just the way he is help too.

But some are don right rude. Some just give you the weird stare and talk like you are some second class citizen. But I guess that just normal as well given the fact that I seldom being there.

The most troublesome is I have to guard the cash box and record book. It a troublesome job as I had to look out for any fast swindling that the workers might pull. I had to record every transactions being done a trouble job indeed considering many customer come in and out and only one me in the counter .

However at the ends of day, I learn quite a lot. I learn not to judge at first value. People who seem bad can be good and vice versa and learn that working in any way is hard. After observe how hard my mother and workers works  it teach me that Money doesn’t grow on tree, it come by every sweat and blood.  Saving every penny for their family when their own needs are ignore sure teach me the value of money Guess I should less da kei