WHAT WRONG WITH ME?

THIS IS THE QUESTION I HAD ASK MYSELF. WHAT HAD I DONE TO MY FRIEND TO DESERVE MY FRIEND WHO IS MY BEST FRIEND IN MY MIND TO HAVE CAME TO DISLIKE AND IGNORE ME? WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS? AM I BECOME BORING TO YOU? OR EVEN UNBEARABLE TO YOU? what have i done to deserve this i thought we were friends? recenly i thought my heart which is tainted by the snare of loneliness can be wash as i move on from the old life but guess i was wrong.i am alway will be same as i am i guess it is what made who i am. it is what made my personality and my heart which was still stain by lonliness which i guess will never be washed away and can only be scrap of by bits. however, the stain will alway be there,only visible or not. in my state i guess it is prety visible to the extent of irritation to others. i guess my heart is only to contain me only and nothing else and i was my own men, a men who keep to himself. this is what i thought previously and still do now then ever. i thought by excaping past and move on to another area will change my preception but i was wrong. After God, me was all i have and had and which i will take of. i shall take good care of me and love it since it is the person i can cope and friend with the most i hope no one read it